I need to start standing up for myself more as an autistic person. I am sick of people who think they know better about how to handle my condition and my life then I do. Just because you “knew a guy” who won the Nobel Prize and was autistic does not mean I should be able to hold down a job at a super market without having a nervous breakdown every week. Everyone tells me what I am capable of without even listening to me about my capacity or my struggles. I often go on about what I am on this blog, what I do, what I think, and what I am capable of. I have decided it is time to stand up for myself and declare what I am not.
I am not “lazy” because I can’t function emotionally or mentally in the general work force.
I am not “weak” because I have a hard time processing emotions and am easily overwhelmed by the emotions of others.
I am not “stupid” because I cannot understand some math concepts and have a hard time with my handwriting and communicating verbally at times
I am not a “child” because I require the emotional support and protection of my family and enjoy being near them and having them in my life
I am not “sad” because I have depression that comes from dealing 24/7 with a brain that does not understand or function well in a world made for neurotypical minds.
I am not a “freak” or a “savant” because I excel at retaining information and discussing my area of expertise.
I am not a “failure” because I could not get through college after 4 years of striving and pain and intense mental focus.
I am not a “recluse” because I prefer to stay at home where I feel most in control and safe.
I am not “anti-social” because I cannot handle large public gatherings and can only handle one or two friends at a time.
I am not what you want or need me to be
I am Autistic and I don’t have to apologize for that to anyone.
So shut up, listen up have some fries with that Assburger